Pain

It's funny how we let pain overtake our thoughts and our actions. Pain is real, but the power we choose to give it is up to us.  I have pain daily because of the chemo treatments, but I have to say if I will give in to that pain or deal with it.

There is also an emotional pain.  It has the same principals.  We can let it rule and ultimately ruin our lives or deal and not acknowledge it.  The choice is ours.  It isn't an easy option, but in life there are no truly EASY options.  No matter what we do there are consequences.  So in the end what we choose directs our outcome in life.

Change is inevitable so we need to learn to adapt to it.  Making better decisions will lead to better consequences.  Less stress from wrong decisions leaves less pain to sort through.

Think before you act.

Blank

You know that feeling you get when you are staring at the computer or paper trying to think.  The BLANK feeling, or stare as some would call it.  The one where you get lost in another world where you are really not doing anything.

You are focused on nothing and lost in everything.  You journey to a place of peace even though the chaos is all around you.  Your thoughts and mind go to break mode and it takes a minute to come back.  Sometimes you can even talk while in your trance, but you cannot break the stare.

What is it that makes us go THERE?  Why does our mind have to force us to take a break because we won't give ourselves one?  Would these still occur if we took better care to relieve our minds of the day to day stress it suffers through?

My two cents.

MIA

Well, sometimes you miss out on things in life, including your own blog writing.  Today we were out working a Benefit Yard Sale for me.  Who knew my sister-in-law and I would become so close.  I know it was a surprise to both of us.

So, the days before when I didn't write?  I was not well. Chemo has that effect on a person sometimes.  I don't like to make excuses, it is what it is.

Until I have better health there are gonna be days that I miss out on blogging. I just have to remember to stop tearing myself down over it.

Not too many harsh thoughts, but there you have it.

Peace Out!

Limbo

Have you ever felt like you were in a place of limbo?

No not purgatory, you wouldn't be here would you?  You'd be like, what, dead, but you are here reading.

The place where you want to do something, but know you can't or don't have the motivation to do it.  I know that is how I feel right now.  I want to do things, but am at a stand still.  I have surgery coming up so I can't start my Masters degree until that finishes (plus healing).  I can't read a lot or write because Chemo has my brain fogged to no end.  

I feel like the stupid characters on the cartoons...duh...duh... So I started this blog to try and get my random and sometimes lost (mostly lost who am I kidding) thoughts out before I forget them.  I am not sure they are the best thoughts yet, but practice is said to make perfect.  I guess we will see.

More useless ramblings from a Chemo poisoned mind.